seen enough!!! i don't know how can i be strong!

I've seen enough to know
I've seen enough,
Seen enough to know
Oh my eyes remind me next time
So I keep them closed

I like to pine away for what I hate
It keeps me in the dark
Like a one-track mind don't let me start
You keep me sharp

Once more into the crowd
Temptation wears you out
Go home, your heart too loud
Always (oh? alone? on?)

It's no surprise that all the things I like
Are making me a ghost
I should have never started killing time,
I can't go slow

Once more into the crowd
Temptation wears you down
Go home, your heart too loud
Always

by dryer - seen enough

To be, or not to be: that is the question ??

ben neredeyim bilmeden.. sadece var oldum.. gariptir.. varolmak herşeye yetmiyor. varolmak ne demek? ne demek beni rahatlatan cevabı bulmaktan öte.. var olmak! hmmm.. içinde olduğum ve katlanmak zorunda olduğum içerik.. varolmak! varım ben burdayım ve nedense varolmayı hissetmek zorunluluğu dayatılmış bana :)

i am the spectator and i will always be ;)

The birds are up when he collapses through the door
Spilling out in constellations on the floor
Soaked in liquor he's soft as bread ...
And everything that's left of him to beckon to his bed

He is a nocturnal always alone
But you'll speak in secret codes
That he has never known
In this world, but not of it
So he watches from above it
A visitor here, this is not home

I am the spectator
I can see the world passing by from here
I am just a child, to a man
Back to the dust where i began
I was never even here at all
I am the spectator

His eyes, like two cats, scratching in his head
Begging him for sleep, starving for a bed
But sleep, it never comes
so he ticks the time away
Hour after hour, hear them play their bells go

Chime chime chime, ticking ticking time

I am the spectator
I can see the world passing by from here
I am just a child, to a man
Back to the dust where i began
I was never even here at all
I am the spectator

And the bells go
Chime chime chime, ticking ticking time

I am the spectator
I can see the world passing by from here
I am just a child, to a man
Back to the dust where i began
I was never even here at all
I am the spectator

by the bravery - i am the spectator

ne zaman öğreneceğim?

"Ne zaman öğreneceğim... opera için teleskop, tavşan avı için havan topu ne kadar fazlaysa, günlük hayat meseleleri için de benim aklım ve ruhum o kadar fazla." Alain de Button

ne zaman öğreneceğim? hayatta her zaman ben olamayacağımı? rol yapmam gerekliliğini ve kendim olmakla nelere katlanmam gerektiğini? ve ne zaman insanlara güvenmemem gerektiğini? gariptir. insanlara inanmam gerektiğini öğrettiler bana.. öğretiler doğrultusunda hep karşı çıkan bir asiydim. yalnız ve aldırmaz diye tanımlanan. sınırlara aldırmadan sınırları tanımlayan bir olarak yaşayan.. annem öyle dedi.. kendin ol.. ne olursan. ölürken.. sensin mezara giren. her zaman yalnızsın.. her zaman sen!